Crossdresser, Transgendered, bordering on transsexual but not quite..... I've posted this and will follow up with other happenings related to my life related to how it is affected by crossdressing. At this point November 2015, I am nearing retirement age, and have spent the last 18 years alone because there are so few women in the world who can accept a man who is anything but the all masculine guy she ideally wants. To be feminine, for a guy, is like the kiss of death unless he's lucky enough to be homosexual. Unfortunately for me, I'm only attracted to women, and so, I will most likely be alone for the rest of my life, probably another 40 years of isolation from any intimate contact at all. I don't look forward to this, but for me, there is no other choice. We don't get to choose who we're sexually attracted to. I'd rather be gay then be alone, but I simply am turned off by the thought or even scent of another man.